January 1, 1994 to July 6, 2021

2020 was rough with the loss of many loved ones due to COVID. I thought the worst was over and then 2021 arrived, taking both my ex (who I was still friendly with) by suicide and my only daughter, Kylie (27 years old), by a horrific car accident.

I am hopeful that they are both at peace. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of Kylie or have my private chats with her, whether in the car or walking to the train station, etc. I laugh, I cry, sometimes both at the same time.

I also sense her rolling her eyes at me, quite frequently. We had our ups and downs but had a very special bond. Not only did I lose my daughter, but I lost my partner in crime.

People ask me how I am able to survive and continue on. I used to think the same thing, how do people deal with the death of their loved ones?

For me, it was therapy, medication, love and support of family, friends, co-workers and a great group called Compassionate Friends. I know that I am not the same person I was previously, but I continue on knowing that my daughter would want me to.

I also try to keep myself busy and maintain my sense of humor. I wanted to share this message with others to let you know there are groups to support survivors of the death of loved ones.

You can call your local hospitals, doctors or therapists for recommendations.

Also, for those who are feeling hopeless, aside from support groups, there is also a new crisis hotline 988, that provides 24/7, confidential support to people in suicidal crisis or mental health-related distress. Know that you are not alone!